Let Go of Unconscious Terror
Recently I had an irrational and very abrupt, angry reaction to something that my daughter was doing.
She was getting dressed, and as I came in the door, the window was open and I realized that anyone could see into her room.
Well, needless to say it wasn't a very pretty moment. I didn't say anything horrible but the way that I said it was unattractive and extremely over reactive.
I pondered it the next morning because that's not my normal behavior. Yes, I was overworked at the time, moving a home of 12 years it's a lot. I was physically, mentally, and emotionally drained. But even at that, I normally wouldn't have such a strong reaction.
Then, the realization came to me in such a rush... when I was her age I had a few situations that really terrified me, and seeing her in that state brought back all those unconscious feelings.
I'd like to share with you this one particular situation, to explain exactly what I'm talking about.
I was around 12 years old, after taking up all my clothes I had just gotten into bed. I reached over to turn out the light, and I heard something at the window, there was a man... staring at me.
I could barely get the scream out, he scared me so much! Finally after a few attempts I was able to make enough noise so that my stepfather could hear me and I babbled to explain what was happening. He immediately grabbed his shotgun and went running out to look for him in the yard. He didn't find him, but he did find the brick that the man put underneath my window so that he could stand on it to watch me.
It's amazing that I forgot about that night and that feeling of being so vulnerable, violated, and afraid. On one level our brain protects us from the trauma of our childhood, and on another level that trauma is unconsciously there, ruling our lives.
The terror that I felt came rushing back in that moment with my daughter. Because I was able to recognize that my behavior was not normal for me, the experience gave me an opportunity to recognize the unconscious memory, work through the trauma and finally let it go.
Looking back on it now I'm grateful that my step father did not come across him, and thankful that he protected me like that.
To all parents out there, protect your kids by informing them, watching out for them, loving them silly, and letting them know to shut their windows while changing.
Another Reason Why I Love What I Do!
The cries for help without and within,
She hears in her heart and breath of the wind.
“Heal my mind, my heart and my life.
Please help me cope in my time of strife.”
She listens and responds, prepared for debate,
As those in need defend their miserable state.
Though weary herself of what life demands,
She continues to counsel when others command.
The beauty of her soul shines through her smile,
When solitude in nature she strolls for a while.
To celebrate her life and a year that is new,
Dear Audrey, this comes with blessings for you.
You Inspire Me
I have a friend who inspires me to be a better person. She has a severely limited income at the moment…by far the most limited of anyone that I know by far. Yet she lives in the richest way I’ve seen in a long time.
Own Your Rights
I wish a very happy 4th of July to all.
YOU COMPLETE ME
I'm sharing the homework that my daughter Serena had to do for school.
When you read what I wrote below you will see why I wanted to share.
THERE IS LIGHT AFTER DEATH
One week ago I was taking the day to clean/organize my home. When I do this I meditate and just get into a good groove with myself, a great vibration. I also was listening to one of my favorite books, “Co-Creating at Its Best” by Esther Hicks and Wayne Dyer on Audible. This book is an interview that Wayne Dyer did with Abraham and it has some powerful information that I have used to create a healthier and happier life for myself.
I love life.